{"id":53,"date":"2011-06-06T00:29:44","date_gmt":"2011-06-06T05:29:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/?p=53"},"modified":"2011-06-06T00:29:44","modified_gmt":"2011-06-06T05:29:44","slug":"my-father-pieces","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/?p=53","title":{"rendered":"My Father Pieces"},"content":{"rendered":"

To be honest, I haven\u2019t known where to begin with my Father pieces.\u00a0 He is such a mystery.\u00a0 And I\u2019m afraid he will remain as such.\u00a0 So please bear with me as I attempt to put a few pieces together at a time.\u00a0\u00a0 What started me on this journey about 5 years ago was the fact that I knew more about my Dad\u2019s death than his life.\u00a0 One of the first sentences I wrote was \u201cI hate the bullet\u201d.\u00a0 The bullet represents not only the literal bullet but all of the negative of my Dad\u2019s story.\u00a0 I wanted to find the positive.\u00a0 I was taught to believe and do believe that there is a reason for everything.\u00a0 And that means everything<\/em>.\u00a0 I struggled with that.\u00a0 What was the reason and the positive in my Dad\u2019s murder?\u00a0 Were these concepts even possible?\u00a0 Murder and positive.\u00a0 Murder and reason. \u00a0\u00a0Aren\u2019t these paradoxes? \u00a0I was determined to find out.\u00a0 So I spent my year of maternity leave with my son finding out.\u00a0 I didn\u2019t expect to have everything figured out but at least get a start.\u00a0 I made incredible progress in that first year of discovery.\u00a0 I felt by the end of the year that I had found a few positive reasons.\u00a0 He did not die in vain.<\/p>\n

On June 12th<\/sup> 1976 my Dad 32 year old Allan Pearce was shot in a home invasion on his parent\u2019s farm outside Moosomin, Saskatchewan.\u00a0 My Grandma was also raped.\u00a0 My parents had a house on the property.\u00a0 My sister was 20 months old and my Mom was 3 days from due with me.\u00a0 That is the short version.\u00a0 I am working on the long version but believe me when I say that it is complicated and painful.\u00a0 I have heard versions and told the story since I was 12 years old but putting it down in writing as accurately and respectfully as possible is completely different; especially when you weren\u2019t there.<\/p>\n

My Dad gave his life trying to protect his family.\u00a0 I have no doubt of that.\u00a0 There is evidence that more people would have died if things had not happened exactly as they did.\u00a0 For me, I find this incredible.\u00a0 I am so proud and honored to be able to say that my Dad gave his life for ours.\u00a0 But it is also the reason I wish I could have known him.\u00a0 That is the pain that doesn\u2019t leave; the constant back and forth.<\/p>\n

The man who pulled the trigger and raped my Grandma was arrested within a few hours and received a life sentence.\u00a0 He has spent the last few years working to rehabilitate.\u00a0 He has become a Christian, and for all the judgments out there on this subject, please reserve them for God and trust that we have received enough information on the subject to believe that he is telling the truth.\u00a0 He is now in a halfway house with a job.<\/p>\n

The accomplice to the crime also received a life sentence.\u00a0 Even though he did want to be there, did not pull the trigger or commit the rape he received almost the same sentence as the man who did.\u00a0 We understand the legality of the situation and now as we look back we also wonder if prison saved his life.\u00a0 Where would he be if he had been on the outside?\u00a0 He is now working full time in a half way house as a counselor; completely rehabilitated and a Christian.<\/p>\n

For my Dad, a man of God and strong faith, the fact that these two men are now on a path to God would have been reason enough to give his life.\u00a0 It is reason enough to say that he did not die in vain. \u00a0But the other side is that all these men had to do was ask for help and my Dad would have done anything for them.\u00a0 No one had to die that day.<\/p>\n

I have found the positive and the reason, or as much as my human mind can comprehend, so the bullet has less power over my life. \u00a0And if I can find the reason for my Dad\u2019s murder everything else seems a whole lot easier.\u00a0 I\u2019m thankful for what my Dad did I just wish he wouldn\u2019t have had to do it.\"\"<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

To be honest, I haven\u2019t known where to begin with my Father pieces.\u00a0 He is such a mystery.\u00a0 And I\u2019m afraid he will remain as such.\u00a0 So please bear with me as I attempt to put a few pieces together … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":"","_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[1,7],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=53"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":55,"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53\/revisions\/55"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=53"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=53"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/puzzle-peace.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=53"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}