I have been taking a break from blogging.\u00a0 Well, a break from publishing my blogs.\u00a0 I have been writing but then part way through decide that I need to say something else and start another one.\u00a0 So I have several partially completed blogs that may surface in the near future.\u00a0 I needed this break just to think my way through the last month.\u00a0 It was not an easy month with lots of ups and downs.<\/p>\n
But here I am on the other side of the last month as well as a year of remembrance, grieving and recovery.\u00a0 I am not saying that everything is \u201cnormal\u201d but I am finding the new normal.\u00a0 When I started blogging about my Mom\u2019s illness I had hoped to be done by the first anniversary.\u00a0 But I slowly realized how aggressive that plan was.\u00a0 I just wasn\u2019t prepared to deal with it so quickly.\u00a0 As I write these blogs I really am dealing with the content.\u00a0 They aren\u2019t just words on the page I take them seriously and process them as I write.\u00a0 So I realized that I had to go at the pace of my heart, not my head.\u00a0 And now that I have passed the one year mark I have to say that my feelings concerning my Mother\u2019s illness and death have changed.\u00a0 As I had hoped they would.\u00a0 The stabbing pain is gone and has been replaced by smoldering memories.\u00a0\u00a0 I am beginning to feel the relief.<\/p>\n
When I realized that the pain that I was writing from was gone I wondered if I should continue to blog about my Mom\u2019s illness.\u00a0 I have gone back and forth several times.\u00a0 And have decided to see it through. \u00a0The recount will no longer come out of a desperate plea for relief but a desire to have a written account of what we all went through; especially Mom.\u00a0 My Mom suffered in relative silence my entire life and I want to end that silence.\u00a0 She deserves a voice and a light needs to be shed on the suffering that comes with chronic and terminal illnesses.\u00a0 I also have a few other things that I feel more ready to share about myself and my life.<\/p>\n
Thanks for sticking with me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I have been taking a break from blogging.\u00a0 Well, a break from publishing my blogs.\u00a0 I have been writing but then part way through decide that I need to say something else and start another one.\u00a0 So I have several … Continue reading